What am I thinking? Haha,talking about being the genuine you.oh my,I have no right to say that at all.why?because I'm not acting genuinely.idk the reason.I just feel weird.god what's wrong with me?
Maybe I'm an attention seeker?maybe I'm afraid of loneliness?hmm,who knows right?a cheerful girl in the outside.but maybe inside her is simply a sad lonely heart.

Dear god, what wrong with my mind ei?so many things come popping out my mind.suddenly I feel sensitive.I mean I don't know whether I have been thinking too much or maybe it's true.but who cares ? I shouldn't even give a damn. I mean hey I'm jasmine.it really not my wrong if u have anything against me.because I know pretty well that o have not changed much.so it's not me.maybe it's just you,what u think.I felt weird.awkward I guess.it's like it's hard to bond with people.it's hard. 
Another thing...why do I feel lonely when I'm alone?even if it's just for the brief second.oh,maybe I'm too conscious over how people see me.how people judge me.but why do I even care.haix....this is frustrating!oh!

Dear God,
I know I'm kindda long winded.haha,pardon me.but before I end,I would like to make a prayer.I mean it would be pointless if I just babble and don't pray about it,right.cuz I know at the end of the day,God is the only one who knows.
Dear dear God,I just wanna surrender myself unto you.God I pray that you will use me in your great plan.I know u have an awesome plan for me.god I'm gonna entrust u in this.for wherever u set in my plan,I will accept humbly.God,remind me that u are my god and I can never ever beat u in anything.god remind me that u have great plans in me and also your way never makes mistakes.god,I know sometimes I seem strong,but I'm weak inside.without u,I'm nothing.without u,I will never have changed for the better.therefore,god continues to guide me to the path u have designed for me.
Also,God take away my pride.take away my judgmental heart.take away my sensitiveness.take away my worldly pursue.take away my heart of fame.God,take away everything that aren't right or good for me.
God,teach me to see little of myself and many of u.teach me to humble myself.teach me to have a willing heart to serve and help..teach ne to be patient.teach me to be caring.teach me to love.teach me to be graceful.teach me everything that I'm supposed to know.
God,I'm very thankful for what u have given me.I'm also very grateful that I'm given this chance to come to fgc.god,as I continue to attend fgc,I pray that u will be able to use on behalf of yourself to lend a helping hand to others.god,I pray that u give me a pair of eyes to see peoples needs,so that I will be able to tend to them.God,I pray that I will not try to create fame out of myself.God I pray that for whatever I do or think,it will be edifying.God I may go astray at times,I may think wickedly.but god,one thing I'm sure of is that you will never leave your sheep behind.
Once again,teach me to surrender entirely unto you.teache me to look at everything differently.and god my last request is that u will use me to help others.not to glorify myself,but u alone.
Amen:)