I always feel whole in Thee :)

so good to have a best friend.

some people view God as a belief.some people think that God is a spiritual booster.

but the fact is God is literally everything and beyond all.

the actual definition of: get a life !

one day you will realize that living for someone else is tiring.one day,you will give up living for someone else.one day,you will realize that life is too short to risk living for someone else.

start living for yourself:)

'legal' happiness

there are many ways to find happiness.in my opinion,everybody is out to find happiness.everybody wants happiness.nobody wants to be a sad person.it's like everyone has a mission,which is to get happiness.many people found happiness through different ways.some people found happiness through their achievement.some people found happiness through love.and etc.there are millions and billions of ways.but the question that triggers me is,"what kind of happiness is considered 'legal'?" legal in a sense of righteousness,true happiness and the honour kind of happiness.

yes,maybe earning big times is your perspective of happiness.but is this kind of happiness legal? personally,happiness is more than what we think,how we view,what we see. rather,it is more than words.it is something beyond somebody imagines.

living for God,perhaps,is the ever true happiness and it will always be.

The message to God

The message to God:
I have been astray.thinking that I have done well?thinking that I have been a all along good Christian? You are totally wrong.

I went to orchard today.the world is such a tempting place.it is a place ready to seduce you with its beauty.indeed,it is a beauty.but,what beauty does it speak?it speaks of wordly beauty.where's GOd?in your heart,what is His position?you have time going after the world beauty..but no time for Him.

No doubt,it's so much easy to give up God. When all temptation come,can you withstand? It's scary to know what the world does to me.it is scary to know that how the Internet affect me.it's scary to know that the world is scary.it is scariest to know that I'm easily shaken.
My heart is swift to temptation.GOd,I hereby ask you to guard my heart forever.teach me when is the right time.teach me how to glorify You.teach me how to live for You.teach me how to love you more.teach me the thing you want me to know. Take away the wordly view from me,throw them away.filter my thoughts and guide me with Your word.guard my heart,my soul and my mind. Let no corrupted words be spoken from my mouth.let no corrupted thoughts fill my brain. Let nothing evil occupy me except You,God.

God I need you in my life,forever and ever.
I surrender myd life to the one and only God.
God never make mistakes.
AMEN

Dad's special day.

today is my dad's 60Th birthday.
this is the speech I've made:

How should I start? hmm, first thing first,Happy Birthday Dad! you're officially 60 years old.Congratulation!

60 is a special number. you have come a long way and not everybody got the chance to reach that far.

When I was a little kid,I respect my dad very much.Of course, i still do.He didn't need to shout neither did he need to beat me up.I would obey by his command without a second thought.I think that is the big difference between a daddy and a mummy.

although my dad might not be the most handsome and richest dad,I will never trade anything in exchange of my dad.

The tender love care he has given me can't be presented by mere words.Lastly,I'm very thankful of having such a great dad.

to my dad,cheers!:D


the end of speech. of course, I have so much more to talk about.But you know,I won't stop if I carry on.

Hmm,to me,my dad isn't like those dad i see in movie.He doesn't really express his love directly.I guess he has the more easternize view. provider of the house is men's responsibility.but i do know that he love us very much.he cares for us.his love for this family.

this is just a blog. no matter how much i typed,you will never understand his love for us unless you're in my shoes.

Dad, I love you :D

sickening

I'm so sick of viewing your profilw everyday.I'm so sick of missing you everyday.I'm so sick of thinking of the past every single day.I'm so sick of everything.I wish I never know you.

As hilarious as it could be, I do these sickening things repeatedly without fail,non-stop;incessantly.

When will I stop?

It's ok

It's ok, my dear. even if the world doesn't forgive you, God will forgive you. even if people are utterly disappointed with you, God will not fail you. even if you think it's hopeless, God will give you hope. even if life seems futile, God will give you life.

you might have failed God hundred and thousands of times, but God will never fail you.

you're not alone.

Seek God, He is the answer to your questions.

hack care

hey,it's ok. hack care those unhappy events and incidents. those are here for a reason. they are here to mould you into a stronger person. they are here to make you stronger. they are not here to destruct you. they are not here to destroy your self esteem.

The instrument of life

Hmm... what do i wanna talk about...

Don't you think humans emotions are very unique? our emotions, our feelings are unique.what we think...how we feel...these are our emotions..they are instrument of our lives.an instrument will never sound nice if you play the wrong note..it is exactly the same if you're not in a good mood,your face and feelings tell it all.

it's very funny.the more you tell yourself that i must not let this particular event/incident affects me, the more it is gonna affect you. it is as if the more you tell yourself not to fall into the same trap, the higher possibility it is you're gonna get trap again.

at times, you thought you can do this. at times, you thought you have gotten over it. at time you thought you can live as if nothing has happened. but the truth is you can't do this. the truth is you haven't gotten over it. the truth is you can't live as if nothing has happened.

it's never easy to get over something.it's never easy to act as if nothing has happened.

The Evil in You

there is an evil in everybody.it's never easy to escape from this evil.this evil is your image.it follows you wherever you go.some people are able to tame this evil.some people are not strong enough to against this evil.eventually the weak people get caught in the mist of this evil.this evil uses you.this evil leads you to bad track.this evil speaks evil to you.this evil will constantly harm you.as a result,you yourself become the evil.

on the other hand,people who are able to tame this evil are not exactly victorious too. at times,this evil will be set free if you are not on guard.when this evil is set free,it will try its very best to tempt you,until you give in.if you're strong enough,you won't get tempted.if you're weak,there is a high possibility that you will get tempted.

it's a constant reminder to myself.no matter how strong,good and etc a person you are,there is always this evil waiting to be set free. somehow,we get tempted by this evil.we give in easily.it's OK.it's fine.just make sure you know when it's time to make a U-turn.make sure that you don't get trapped.

smile?

humans are unique species.this statement is undeniable.we are a little bit unique,weird,crazy and etc.in short,we are a little bit of everything.

why do people smile? hmm,because they are happy? oh,maybe they are smiling for the sake of smiling.OK fine,i have no doubt with the smile because they are happy part.but what about smiling for the sake of smiling?why?why do people smile for the sake of smiling?is it because our smile is free of charge? is it because our smile is unlimited? probably. we are too immune to the world.we are numb.

we are trained.the smile will just linger by your lip even if it isn't a genuine smile of yours.

If you never intend to leave the bad behind,the good will never be welcomed.

difference

what's the difference between you and me?oh yeah,perhaps I'm smarter.oh,perhaps I'm richer.oh ,perhaps I'm more popular.so what?we are all sinners by nature and that doesn't set any big difference between you and me.

nobody is flawless...not even near..

what do you sweet? oh,she isn't pretty.oh she isn't tall enough.oh,she is a little bit chubby.oh,she has a short legs.oh this oh that...hey what's wrong with you people?are these all you saw?hey,i hope this does serve as a reminder,the fact that nobody is flawless,so will you just stop picking at people's flaws,SERIOUSLY.

i want this blog to live.i want to note down my thoughts through blogging.so,the next time,when i look back,i know what i was thinking.

it's not a portal where i try to create fame out of myself.it's not a portal where i try to gain attention.it's a portal simply about my thoughts and my life.

words can be soothing.words bring people together.words create melody.In contrast,word can be harmful.words can tear people apart.words can kill our self-esteem.

to everything,there are good and bad sides of anything.

I survive.

i survived tonight. i survive today without you.I'm glad i made it.i sure hope my determination can bring me further,to a place where i won't remember knowing you.

My chance dissipated in the air

I feel lousy now! The overwhelming sadness can't be denied.oh,what a unexplainable sadness!I'm shock with myself,the other side which I did not know. How coward could I be!:(
Why didn't I speak to him??!it was a good chance.oh yeah,I just let go of this good chance.I'm such a dumb ass.
Why couldn't I be mire courageous.thought you were good at socializing!boo!
It was purely a coincidence.I didn't plan it at first hand.I didn't even think of it.so he was right in front of me.isn't it what I wanted?yes,that's exactly what I wanted.but why on earth didn't I speak to him?even a simple hi coulbe commendable.

Do ya know how Did it feel?when it was happening,I wished fir the millionth time that everything will end asap.but when it Sid come ti an end,my heart sunk.I got so deflated.it is so ironic!now I wish for the millionth time that the incident could be rewrote.I wish fir the millionth time that I did talk to him.of course,I do wish for the billionth time that he started the conversation first.haiz,no point whining,it is not as if I can rewind time.for instance,I wish I have this super power like the main character from the time traveller's wife.
It so sickening.
Probably,our path wasn't meant to be overlapped.

a scary place called world

world is a scary place.it is very shocking to hear that people do sell their children in exchange of money.what's wrong with all these people?what are they thinking? how can parents sell their children as a social entertainer in exchange for that few penny! this is outrageous and not acceptable. i realize people from the 21st century are simply out of their mind.

hey,your children are not your labourer.you are not supposed to treat them as slaves in order to earn yourself some money.yes,you are poor.yes,you are in need of money.but that doesn't draw you to a conclusion with selling your children away to do some horrible jobs.you know what i call this kind of parents? inhumane who are worst than beasts.

how scary the world is?it seems that the world can drive people nuts.the world can drive people to do ridiculous thing.the world can drive people crazy! see what the world is doing? the world is no longer a safe place.it is a scary place.

seriously,money motivates people.money can drive people to do horrible stuffs.