emptiness

i just wANted to blog! A tornados of emotions in me that needed to be channeled out through blogging!

Life to me,seem empty for the past week.it is as if everything is vanity.I don't know what happening to me.It felt so wrong and I'm scared.Suddenly,i felt perplexed.No goal and aim.There is nothing to push me forward.This kind of feelings scare me a lot. You know how's the feelings like? it something similiar living in a life full of vanity.

this is not i want! whenever i had a plan,i would find hundreds of excuses to delay my plan and i would end up oding nothing eventually.
what's happening to me? questions can't stop bugging my head for the past few weeks.what's my aims in life?why am i studying>why do we need to study?questions such as these will come bugging me every now and then.sometimes,i'm simply blank.the world seems blAnk to me in instance.

has anyone felt sad without knowing the reason? let me tell u,this is what i'm going through now! sad,sadness...without knowing the reason.

i tried to search for the enthusiasm i once possessed. but it seems impossible to have them back.

sometimes,,i want ti cry out my heart.but tears simply won't form.eventually,i end up crying out loud mentally.

yea,i am who i am because thee i am says i am.but who am i,God?i have been searching and searching for the answer for quite sometime.yet,i simply cant figure out.

these days,life simply seem gloomy to me. eveything is not on the right track.i'm a failure.why?because i can't set things straight. i dint do the best for things i ought to do. i fail people.i disappoint people.above all i disappoint myself.is it too late to set myself back in track?can i seek for another forgiveness?can i gain trust from people again?from people that i have broke trust.

TRUST,is an invisible enrgy that hold one another together.without trust,nothing will work out.

last of all,God i reakky need You to lead me out from this situation.i know when everything seems to be at the dead junction.You will create a way for us. no matter how dragful things are,You will not forsake me. no matter how badly i have failed You,You will never forsake me.No matter how Many time I fail You,You will never forsake me.
YOU WILL NEVER FAIL ME NOR FORSAKE ME.GOD YOU ARE THE LIGHT AND THE SALT OF MY LIFE.SEACRH ME IN THE WILDERNESS AND LEAD ME BACK ON TRACK AGAIN.i'm sorry God,i need you to search me in the wilderness instead of me yearning and searching for You.I'm sorry.i just do not have the strength to do so now.i need to be rescued.